Problems

As much as I love being a freak, it does have its downside.  I have nothing in common with the people around me.  I am a Christian, but even with that I don't connect with other Christians my age.  I like watching tv and movies, but not the ones the are popular.  I love reading books, but I have very high standards so I end up reading less known books.

When it comes to getting along with other Christians, I have a few problems.  First of all my definition of Christianity is different form other people's.  For me being a Christian means having a personal relationship with God and wanting to live my life the way He has planned.  Part of that is wanting to please Him by following the rules He wrote in the bible and learning what He wants me to do with my life.  Another problem I have is I don't understand a lot of the worries that they have.  In bible studies I have heard people asking questions about God that I think are weird.  One example is when one girl asked why God let bad things happen.  For me the answer is simple: God made us all with free will and He wont step in unless He's asked.  If He was to stop people from doing bad things then it would mean that He took away their free will.  So for me there's no mystery.

I would write more, but I should go to sleep soon, I had a migraine this morning and I think my fever is trying to make a comeback.  In short, I'm not normal!!! :P  And I have a slight problem with connecting to people, but that just means I have to go out and look for more freaks to hang out with!

Scary Public Private Information

I just watched a Doc Zone (yes, I love watching documentaries in my spare time) about the amount of private information that's put up on Facebook.  First of all, I don't like facebook.  I don't mind sharing my day with my friends, but I only want to share it with my friends.  I don't really understadnt eh concept of "facebook friends".  If I don't know a person in real life I'm not going to have them on my facebook. Secondly, why do people put up such stupid things on facebook?!?!?!

There are things that you should put on facebook (graduation ceremonies, hiking trips, weddings) and things you shouldn't (party pictures).  Of course, if you're like me you have a name that's fairly common (I think there are about 80 people with the same name as me on fb right now) so the chances of an employer finding you is slim.  However, there are still ways to find people on facebook and if someone like a prospective employer finds you on facebook and discovers the summer party pictures, they might not give you another call.  It's to the point now that if someone has me tagged in a picture I remove that tag (now that they finally let you!) and I try to avoid situations when I might get a weird picture taken of me.  On the bright side, I don't like partying anyway so the chances of a questionable picture of me being taken is slim to none, but I know people who are trying to look for jobs now that they've graduated university and are having a hard time because of those pesky frosh party photots.

I admit that I have some information of facebook too.  I think you can see my name and age, and if you're my friend you can see my birthday, photos and interests, but I like to keep to myself as much as possible.  I even try to keep this blog fairly anonymous.  I know I haven't mentioned my name, I don't think I've said my age, I'm not even sure if I've mentioned my gender (though you can probably easily guess).  It is rather easy to guess whereabouts I live, but there aren't many options when you move to Newfoundland.  I don't even like telling people about me face to face.  It's not that I think that everyone is bad,but I think that trust should be earned, and how is anyone supposed to do that over the internet?

In the end, I guess I just don't get social media.  It can be nice to keep up with old friends and plan events but I don't like everyone seeing into my personal life.  Having everyone reading my thoughts as I think them is creepy (which is why I read over every blog post more than once to make sure nothing weird is in them) and I'd rather not have that happen!!!  so be safe, and set your privacy setting!!! And if you want to be extreme like me, when you sign up for something and they ask for you to put a location in your profile, type that you're in outer space, on the sun or in wonderland!!!
  You stay safer and others get a giggle :D

Why are There No Good TV Shows?

I know that not all of the new shows this season are bad, but there are only two that seem interesting.  Of course there's always Fringe, Castle, and House to watch when I'm bored, but I was hoping that there would be a good scifi show.  Don't get me wrong, I'm loving Once Upon a Time and Grimm looks interesting, but I want my geeky scifi back!

And for those who say that there are a bunch of good scifi I will have to let you know about my standards for a good tv show.  First of all, the show can't have sex, or at least not in your face sex (I can let a hint at it in the next room sort of thing slide) in the show.  I don't need to see that and it usually ruins the story.  Secondly, it has to have fairly clean language.  All swearing does is demonstrate how limited your vocabulary is and how unimaginative the writers are. If you think that that much swearing is normal, go read a dictionary.  Thirdly, the contents of the show have to be plausible or explained well enough in the show to make you think it's plausible.  For example, Doctor Who has ridiculous science (like time travel) but at the same time it has ideas about technology taking over the world.  For example, we all know that there are no such things such as cybermen, and yet the thought that our need to connect instantly with others and share information in the most efficient way possible was the cause of the downfall of the world makes us feel uncomfortable.  I like shows that use social norms to make the viewer feel uncomfortable.  Lastly, the show has to have good characters.  If a show has overly serious or one dimensional characters I can't stand to watch them!  So if you know of anything that fits all of that then let me know!

Now I better get back to studying.....  But now all I need to do is finish a couple papers and study for finals. Oh and get a job, that would help too :D   

What am I Going to Do?

I keep getting asked by people which coast I'm going to live on after I graduate from university. First of all, I would like to point out that I wont be finished for another three or four years.  Secondly, as much as I love beautiful British Columbia, I've come to enjoy the history in St John's.  Thirdly, I have never been one toreally think that far ahead. 

So far in my life I've only planned ahead in a general sense.  For example, when I was in high school I planned to go to university, but I never planned to go all the way across Canada.  Although there were jokes about me coming to Newfoundland for university I never took them seriously.  The only reason I chose Memorial was because I did a google search and MUN was one of the first options.  After seeing the price, I couldn't say no.  But when it comes to what I'll do after MUN, it all depends on what my life at the time is like.  Depending on whether or not I'm married, or dating, or single will impact my decision.  In the end, it's all up to what God wants me to do.  If He wants me to go back to BC, I'll end up there,if He wants me to stay, I'll stay.  That's just the way it goes.  At this point in time I'm more worried about how I'm going to finish my classics paper on time than where I'll be living in four years.

A Little Home Sick

Indian Painbrushes: my favourite wildflower!

I miss all the green!

 While taking a break from studying I decided to go through the files on my computer and I found some pictures of home.  Well, pictures of the woods around home.  As much as I try to convince myself that I'm in a new home, it still feels like a temporary stop.  I still feel like one of these days I'm going to hop on  a plane and return home and it'll be just as I left it.  I know that not everything will be the same, there are already new buildings going up, but I hope that the wood will be the same no matter what.  While looking at some pictures I found some that I really loved.  So here they are!  Sorry that they''re in a weird order, blogger wont let me move them the way I want them!

the butterfly is so pretty

These flowers are so small they're cute :D

I just love this rock face!

Evil Fever

I woke up this morning looking forward to going to class.  I was supposed to learn about politics in ancient Athens, sex and the politics of reproduction, Australopithecus, the Seleukids, and the ideologies of the industrial revolution.  Instead I'm stuck in bed trying not to pass out.  If you're wondering how bad my fever is, let's just say that I could heat the water for my mint tea with my forehead.  Not that I'm not used to getting fevers, but they usually don't happen without reason.  the reason for this fever happens to be eluding me.

I know that midterms have just passed and I don't have a job, but I've been going through that stress for months now so I don't know why I might be getting a stress fever now.  And although I do like to walk around in the cold in what other people might call "thin clothing" I have never actually gotten sick directly after walking around in the cold.  That and I warm up when I walk no matter what I'm wearing, and my new coat is warmer than my hoodie, even if it's not as flexible.  Then again I do get sick whenever there's a storm around and there was a bunch of wind yesterday.  That could be it.  Or it could be a mixture of all that together.

In any case, my head hurts and I can't stand up without falling over.  I think it's safe to say that staying home in bed for the day is a good idea.  And maybe I'll even have scrambled eggs for lunch.  And even though I can't go to class I can still read my books and take notes from them.  Speaking of which it's time that I start reading about Sparta.  Write to ya laters!! 

Things I Miss and Things I don't

Sunrise as seen from my room on the fourth floor of Bowater house.

I admit that since I've moved out of the on campus residence there are a few things that I miss.  For one thing, there were always people to talk to (read eavesdrop) in res and although it sometimes gave me a hard time when I was trying to sleep, it meant that I never felt lonely.  I also miss seeing people in the halls as I walked back to my room.  Even when I had completely different class schedules than my room mate there was always someone whose schedule was similar to mine.  Living in a house off campus, I rarely see my roommates because of the different schedules.  And when they are home for the night I'm usually getting ready for, or already in, bed (you tend to fall asleep early when you wake up at 5am every morning whether you want to or not).  But the thing I miss the most about res is the view from my room.  It always managed to take my breath away.  I also miss only having to walk across campus to get to class, but since it's only a few more minutes to walk from my houseit's not too bad.

What I don't miss is all the house events and parties.  I'm naturally introverted and I like being that way.  If I am going to go to an event I'll go of my own free will because I want to, not because someone told me that I have to go to show support for a house that caused me a great deal of insomnia.  Not that all house events were bad.  In fact I would suggest that anyone living on campus take part in at least half the house events.  However, it was not for me.  I personally don't like staying up late and hanging around in large groups.  Lots of people in a room makes me nervous and I stop talking.  I also have problems relating to people as I don't like most movies, I watch weird (but amazing) shows, I like anime, and I only listen to christian music (along with some classical).  So unless I'm taking the same courses, or another person has the same interests as me it's hard for me to get into a conversation with a stranger.  So, I like living with only a few people.

One problem I have here in this house though is there are four girls that share one shower and every time I have to go brush my teeth at night there's someone in the bathroom!  Anyway, with all that said, I'm off to bed!